Thanks to all who came by and dropped encouraging comments. I’m done venting for now. Did I sound like I was about to crumble or fall to pieces? Haha. I hope not. Life goes on and so must I.
I have taken some preventive measures for safety but these are not foolproof but is anything ever? After the first seizure two years ago I arranged for a part time helper to come in a few times a week. Now she comes in daily for more hours each day. So now I am officially a full time lady of leisure. Hahaha. I can have more time to play with and hug my kids.
Hey, this should make me a stronger, better more loving person but I find that I am still the same old complaining, impatient, grouch. Oklah, bagi chance lah. Half the time I feel sleepy or drugged from the medication. The other half, I feel fearful and frustrated when my sleep gets disturbed by the kids or the spouse and so I show my black face and frustration at them.
But I know I must not let the psychological fear of getting a seizure become worse than an actual seizure itself so I must learn to control it. Otherwise the family will suffer too. This condition is hard not only on the individual who has it but on their families too.
The poor spouse who comes back tired from work now does not have anyone to manja him. He only gets a tired, fearful wife whom he feels he must constantly watch over. Hmm… I hope we can get over this stage and move on the way we were before.
The kids too must not pay the price of a tired, impatient mum but then I’ve always been a tired, impatient mum so theres really no difference. Lol!Â
Hubby says I should get back into easing into an exercise routine which he feels is good for me and so I shall. I am also trying to take it easy and relax more but that feels so strange. I realise that I have always been rushing around that I have forgotten how to relax! So now, I really should learn to listen to some relaxing music, read some magazines, paint my nails but it feels really strange to be doing these things. I don’t even have a good music player and nice CDs although I love music.
I must learn to relax more, exercise, sleep better, eat well etc. But then so must all of you reading this. Don’t take your good health for granted. 🙂
sounds like welcoming you into a “support group” macam 😛
I am sure good things always happen to good people 🙂
I like this support group very much. Hehe.
Actually..in real honesty..no matter what state of health you are in… as a mum of young kids..it’s kinda hard to relax. I think we can really relax once the kids are a lil bit more independent.. (eg: can shower themselves, feed themselves, play by themselves..)
So..don’t fret if you’re angry n impatient. I am too… A LOT!!!! HA HA HA!!!
“I think we can really relax once the kids are a lil bit more independent.. (eg: can shower themselves, feed themselves, play by themselves..)”
Haha. I think not. We’ll have other challenges when they grow up. I see my sisters who have kids whose ages range from 10 – 21 unable to relax too!
You really need more REST and RELAX time for yourself. I think me too…hahhaha. Good to hear that you have a part time helper to help you around a few times a week.
Ya lor. I think YOU need to rest and relax. At least my kids are older now. Yours are at the stage where they absolutely drain you. Sorry but thats true isn’t it?
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Couldn’t agree more, do not take our health for granted. Great to hear that you have a helper to help ya. Relax yeah!
Ah yes, but a helper doesn’t come cheap!
Hi MG. Sorry I’ve not been leaving comments. I read your posts but don’t know what to say. I’m glad you are taking things so positively.
Do you know it’s because of you, I make the effort to make sure mrkat comes home to clean, happy children and fresh, ungrumpy wife?? Some things just stick in the mind forever, and what you said about husbands working hard outside don’t need to come back to a sorry household is one of those things!!
Have you tried those online radio stations? May as well listen to music while blogging! 😀
Oh yes! Thanks for reminding me about the online station. I even customized my own station but forgot about it adi! Eh BTW, I talk only one, just one or two nights ago I yelled at hubby in the middle of the night because the kids and he kacau me until I kenot sleep. He’s pretty mad at me now. Talk about not being grumpy? Hah! That was far from it. 😛
Thats good that you are looking at things positively. Your kids will definitely benefit of having more time with mummy!
Thanks Rina, I better make sure they do then. 🙂
I’m so late to read this. Was glad you are doing fine now. Extra helping hand is a advantage. Have a good rest, Hon.
Thanks. The extra helping hand has its pros and cons ler.
Hey, have been trying to post a comment but had some problems last time.
I think it’ll take some time to get use to the idea of taking medications. But do try to relax and take time to smell the roses. It’s a bit of a challenge for sure but stay positive ya?
I oso want to smell the roses but then hor, my front porch and backyard got no roses, only concrete. How? Hehe.